Unusual title I know but kind of captures what's been happening over the last six months or so. Its been a long gap and of course I think I have eluded to my difficulty with consistency before. however, all is not lost and I have found my initial training in mindfulness very helpful. Since last I wrote I have been for a job interview (2nd place alas), and yesterday I sat in the car in the M6 for three hours going nowhere but watching my poor car get a bit low on fuel and also rather hot.
it was interesting to note how my anxiety levels were slowly rising as I considered all manner of potential outcomes and yet settled after some very brisk "noticing" to just be there and wait.
So a clear indication for me that mindfulness has everyday utility and also effective.
I will post more shortly about some more ideas (honest)
Showing posts with label wellbeing. Show all posts
Showing posts with label wellbeing. Show all posts
Friday, 28 March 2014
Monday, 13 August 2012
The Crying Game(s)
Well its over, and we will all have our memories of what made the London Olympics memorable. For some it will be simply that they were there either as a volunteer, a spectator or even a participant. For most of us I guess we will have consumed the Olympics by watching the television coverage.
The need for immediacy has seen athletes asked that favourite question of pundits "How do you feel" when they were barely able to speak for exhaustion, and on occasion we have seen levels of self blame and doubt that were hard to watch as they apologised to all who had supported them. The sense of failure was almost palpable.
There were of course the triumphant moments on the finishing line and the podium when the medals were awarded. which brings me to my main observation. How many times over the past two weeks have we seen the outpouring of emotion accompanied with tears? It doeesn't seem to matter what gender the athlete was; they just let the tears flow.
If the London Olympics has been a chance to bust myths such as the Tube won't run, it will rain all the time or even it will all grind to an inept halt ; then surely the one myth that has gone is that we (the British) are a repressed race of individuals who cannot show emotion. It becomes all the more paradoxical when you recall that just about a year ago a great deal of emotion was being expressed in parts of the capital but mainly of anger and perhaps frustration.
So are we now more comfortable with showing how we feel?
As we enter the Post-Olympic period and others will try and harness all this good feeling for various ends perhaps we can remember that summer of 2012 when Britain found it was OK to show how you feel and even share that moment with strangers.
The need for immediacy has seen athletes asked that favourite question of pundits "How do you feel" when they were barely able to speak for exhaustion, and on occasion we have seen levels of self blame and doubt that were hard to watch as they apologised to all who had supported them. The sense of failure was almost palpable.
There were of course the triumphant moments on the finishing line and the podium when the medals were awarded. which brings me to my main observation. How many times over the past two weeks have we seen the outpouring of emotion accompanied with tears? It doeesn't seem to matter what gender the athlete was; they just let the tears flow.
If the London Olympics has been a chance to bust myths such as the Tube won't run, it will rain all the time or even it will all grind to an inept halt ; then surely the one myth that has gone is that we (the British) are a repressed race of individuals who cannot show emotion. It becomes all the more paradoxical when you recall that just about a year ago a great deal of emotion was being expressed in parts of the capital but mainly of anger and perhaps frustration.
So are we now more comfortable with showing how we feel?
As we enter the Post-Olympic period and others will try and harness all this good feeling for various ends perhaps we can remember that summer of 2012 when Britain found it was OK to show how you feel and even share that moment with strangers.
Saturday, 11 February 2012
Orgone accumulator
"I've got an Orgone accumulator
and it makes me feel greater
its a one man isolator
made out of orgone"
So sang Robert Calvert on probably Hawkwind's greatest album "Space ritual" , and if you haven't heard it I thoroughly recommend it (in particular the original fold out sleeve is an exercise in 70's excess)
But this was a song based on an actual device that you were supposed to sit inside and somehow it would not only isolate you but capture Orgones and do you good (sorry about the lack of precision here). I came to think about this song (which I really must place on my I Pod) when I was on one of my usual long commutes to London to do RCN business. I am always impressed how we as humans choose to not engage with each other. In fact I would argue we seem to live in fear of the "other". Opprtunities to isolate the self in a public and indeed crowded place are now more numerous than ever. I like most commuters/travellers on the long haul to London have in my possession an I Pod and a Kindle (and probably a Guardian as well), and like a lot of others I probably use my IPod to erase or exclude the sound of the "others" around me. There is something really strange about being party to private conversations in public places facilitated by mobile phones.
We travel forced by circumstance to be with strangers and isolate ourselves by means of technology.
I wonder is this isolation healthy?
and it makes me feel greater
its a one man isolator
made out of orgone"
So sang Robert Calvert on probably Hawkwind's greatest album "Space ritual" , and if you haven't heard it I thoroughly recommend it (in particular the original fold out sleeve is an exercise in 70's excess)
But this was a song based on an actual device that you were supposed to sit inside and somehow it would not only isolate you but capture Orgones and do you good (sorry about the lack of precision here). I came to think about this song (which I really must place on my I Pod) when I was on one of my usual long commutes to London to do RCN business. I am always impressed how we as humans choose to not engage with each other. In fact I would argue we seem to live in fear of the "other". Opprtunities to isolate the self in a public and indeed crowded place are now more numerous than ever. I like most commuters/travellers on the long haul to London have in my possession an I Pod and a Kindle (and probably a Guardian as well), and like a lot of others I probably use my IPod to erase or exclude the sound of the "others" around me. There is something really strange about being party to private conversations in public places facilitated by mobile phones.
We travel forced by circumstance to be with strangers and isolate ourselves by means of technology.
I wonder is this isolation healthy?
Sunday, 5 February 2012
We've only just begun
Now I am pretty sure that was the first line of a Carpenters song in the 70's, and was probably about the commencement of a new relationship or something equally slushy (as I am sure I thought at the time). It also is true if the Guardian can be believed true of another relationship. According to an article last week by Polly Toynbee (who still gets ribbed by her call for readers to vote Lib Dem in the Election of 2010), we are also at the start of something else, another less welcome relationship. A relationship with Austerity. According to her article only 6% of actual public sector cuts planned have yet occurred. thats right readers, only 6%. Now there was no citing of sources, no references (Geneva or Harvard), so maybe she got it wrong. Say for arguments sake she's out by 300%, so approximately 20% of projected cuts have occurred.
With a public sector payfreeze and an expensive reorganisation (marketisation) of the NHS occurring then what does this hold out for us? I wager its a bit more serious than the chatterati camping outside their Libraries in North London or indeed twice weekly bin collections.What will it actually look like? How we can envisage a rolling back of services at such a scale? How will it look in the sleepy hamlet where I live. Well mabe the libary is at risk, maybe the local schools will miss out on maintenance, day services for the vulnerable, or possibly a lessening presence of police. Could be rubbish collection, street cleaning, or public amenities will start charging like parking at the beach . Small stuff maybe, but an eroding feeling, public morale can be vulnerable to such an approach.
To push through this we all need a belief that it can be endured, that we can tolerate the hardships (bit like winter really), and that maybe its in some way tolerable because its inevitable or even fair (just like winter).
So is this approach fair , tolerable or even something that the ordinanry citizen has caused and should pay for? If the answer is no then where will the feeling of injustice go? Here in the UK the usual pattern is to internalise distress , that could mean calls for help to services that no longer exist. It really has only just begun.
With a public sector payfreeze and an expensive reorganisation (marketisation) of the NHS occurring then what does this hold out for us? I wager its a bit more serious than the chatterati camping outside their Libraries in North London or indeed twice weekly bin collections.What will it actually look like? How we can envisage a rolling back of services at such a scale? How will it look in the sleepy hamlet where I live. Well mabe the libary is at risk, maybe the local schools will miss out on maintenance, day services for the vulnerable, or possibly a lessening presence of police. Could be rubbish collection, street cleaning, or public amenities will start charging like parking at the beach . Small stuff maybe, but an eroding feeling, public morale can be vulnerable to such an approach.
To push through this we all need a belief that it can be endured, that we can tolerate the hardships (bit like winter really), and that maybe its in some way tolerable because its inevitable or even fair (just like winter).
So is this approach fair , tolerable or even something that the ordinanry citizen has caused and should pay for? If the answer is no then where will the feeling of injustice go? Here in the UK the usual pattern is to internalise distress , that could mean calls for help to services that no longer exist. It really has only just begun.
Tuesday, 31 January 2012
Powerless victims?
Sometimes I catch a persons name, and especially one I haven't heard for a while and I think "I wonder what happened to them". Of course now with Google and other sourcers of information they can be tracked down if you wish. So it was with real pleasure I read an article online in Mental Health Practice by Prof Michael Traynor. It is called "Constrained by impossible ideals" and it offers (wait for it) a psycho-dynamic perspective on nursings apparent inability to resolve some of its more bedevilling contradictions. Indeed an old friends name (not Michaels...but a reference to Freud) is duly mentioned.
One of his four points to illuminate his argument he refers to is nursings apparent pleasure in "a stance of powerlessness and victimhood". This is evidenced by behaviours that are self defeatting and exhibited in that familiar process we often refer to as "wingeing".He supports this by reference to the Death Drive that Freud saw as part of his Pleasure Principle (not to be confused with the Gary Numan album of the same name), and further more this behaviour provides a degree of pleasure and relief from the conflict and tension that the role possesses.
The author really does have a valid point in his argument that nursing faces in many ways an impossible ideal, and as we know today an ideal that is the benchmark against which all nurses are judged, and publically so. Also it sems quite plausible that a powerless workforce that engages in such behaviour is of course more malleable and convenient to direct (guide, bully,influence.....take your pick)
Sigmund Freud certainly a name from the past in many ways but an interesting theoretical insight none the less
Oh just in case you think this is mere psychobabble then remember the work of Isobel Menzies in the 1960's ,quoted by many in reference to task allocation but predicated on the same underpinnings.
One of his four points to illuminate his argument he refers to is nursings apparent pleasure in "a stance of powerlessness and victimhood". This is evidenced by behaviours that are self defeatting and exhibited in that familiar process we often refer to as "wingeing".He supports this by reference to the Death Drive that Freud saw as part of his Pleasure Principle (not to be confused with the Gary Numan album of the same name), and further more this behaviour provides a degree of pleasure and relief from the conflict and tension that the role possesses.
The author really does have a valid point in his argument that nursing faces in many ways an impossible ideal, and as we know today an ideal that is the benchmark against which all nurses are judged, and publically so. Also it sems quite plausible that a powerless workforce that engages in such behaviour is of course more malleable and convenient to direct (guide, bully,influence.....take your pick)
Sigmund Freud certainly a name from the past in many ways but an interesting theoretical insight none the less
Oh just in case you think this is mere psychobabble then remember the work of Isobel Menzies in the 1960's ,quoted by many in reference to task allocation but predicated on the same underpinnings.
Friday, 27 January 2012
Five a day for mental health
Five a day seems a lot when we talk about vegtables and fruit, indeed if you are out and about like me (or indeed a CPN colleague) how can you carry it all. Some say crisps count but I am not to sure. Yet the principle of five a day is possibly equally applicable to our mental health. So what would they be for you? Indeed have you thought of that at all? How do you enhance your sense of well being and increase your resiliance(or even maintain it).
Well for me this is an interesting challenge. I guess my blog gives a clue. so here goes.
1 doing a day in work that feels worthwhile
2 getting outside at some point in the day and stopping and enjoying the fresh air (it can even be done in London)
3 completing a task or role well
4 enjoying time with others (preferably that involves laughing)
5 spending some time on my own (but not to much)
Simples!!!
What about you?
Well for me this is an interesting challenge. I guess my blog gives a clue. so here goes.
1 doing a day in work that feels worthwhile
2 getting outside at some point in the day and stopping and enjoying the fresh air (it can even be done in London)
3 completing a task or role well
4 enjoying time with others (preferably that involves laughing)
5 spending some time on my own (but not to much)
Simples!!!
What about you?
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