It's been a while.

In my last post, I was saying that I had adopted the practice of Mindfulness. I used the Williams and Penman book "Finding peace in a frantic world", it was clear , easy to read and the audio material very helpful. However, I found I needed to really get to grips with this in a more structured way. I enrolled on an 8 week course here in sunny Bridgend for the bargain price of £120!
I think my motivation was to get more information but really I felt the need to be back in a group. I find I spend much of my time working alone and I missed the experience of learning in the company of others. So I enrolled and managed to clear seven out of eight evenings needed to attend.
No surprises in that it entailed practice of mindfulness, reflection on progress and homework. it was great to be back in a group and even nicer not to have to facilitate it but just enjoy it. My fellow students were a mixed bunch of people, many had health problems and real issues of stress and anxiety. I felt a bit of an interloper really as I was not in a similar place, but in the course of the programme I had a bereavement and a health scare that tested my practice.
The course ended and we were invited to attend a full day of practice at a local Friends House (Quakers). that was really enjoyable and required lots of attention. So what now?
I continue with a daily practice of meditation and find it remains beneficial. It seems preferable to be trying to be in a mindful place rather than a mindless one!
I have now offered to facilitate a Mindful Pause at the RCN HQ on world mental health day, and though I cannot teach the practice of Mindfulness I think a taster session will be fine.
I am now considering further training and possibly another formal course and perhaps a direction to consider is becoming a teacher of Mindfulness. there is a path here that could be taken and which I believe could be fruitful.
So sorry for the gap in postings, but I have been busy.

I need help!!

So mindfulness has proved a really useful adjunct to my daily life and indeed at times has really helped with the demands of work and life itself. Yet, its been a struggle at times to realise its benefits when I am not the most consistent of people. I have found breathing spaces absolutely invaluable and cues in my day like waiting for Tubes and green men (at traffic lights, not from space!) to show to allow me to cross the road have been really good to assist the "cracks" in the day to stop and pause.
I have decided now that its time to undergo a formal training course and I intend to start in a few weeks time a 8 week course here in sunny Bridgend.
I will be posting the process and am really keen to see how it will boost my practice and enable me to find the integration I need.
Due to a variety of factors I started my day today with a Breathing Space and it took me 30 minutes to find the peace to consistently note my breathing. I think that shows how I need to practice more and how everyday life and mental "chatter" can be so intrusive and toxic to what we need.
So a possible new direction and further being explored , so more to write soon.

Show less restraint!

Since june of last year I have been busy leading a consultation process for the DH which culminated in a guidance document being launched by Care Services Minister Norman Lamb on the 3rd of April. Its all about reducing restrictive interventions. I guess most people will think of restraint , but its more than that . it can embrace physical but also chemical processes and the most common such as environmental. That's very much about practices such as blanket security processes such as locking areas, denying access to places (kitchens etc) and just being inhibited in what you can do.
But why have these practices crept into place. Its been a 300 year old debate about the balance between freedom and autonomy and the risk to self and others when in places of care and treatment. It remains a distinctive feature of mental health services that we have the ability to compel and coerce and also have a client group that at times wishes to not only endanger others but also themselves to the point of destruction.
I have met many people in this process over the last year that are really trying to do the right thing by those they care for and yet seem frustrated by what they are required to do and also the environment of scrutiny and resources allocated for their role.
Its been a 300 year old journey, but still far from over.

Slip , slop and slide!

Unusual title I know but kind of captures what's been happening over the last six months or so. Its been a long gap and of course I think I have eluded to my difficulty with consistency before. however, all is not lost and I have found my initial training in mindfulness very helpful. Since last I wrote I have been for a job interview (2nd place alas), and yesterday I sat in the car in the M6 for three hours going nowhere but watching my poor car get a bit low on fuel and also rather hot.
it was interesting to note how my anxiety levels were slowly rising as I considered all manner of potential outcomes and yet settled after some very brisk "noticing" to just be there and wait.
So a clear indication for me that mindfulness has everyday utility and also effective.
I will post more shortly about some more ideas (honest)

Week four of Mindfulness training 6/9/13

The observant among you will have seen there is a huge gap in the posting sequence. I am afraid that my annual leave and a return to a busy work schedule has knocked some of this off course. Now that shouldn't have happened and I guess if you value something (or indeed someone) then that's a pretty lame excuse.
However, all is not lost in the world of mindfulness training. I can sense that some learning has occurred and the practice of meditation is really a way or indeed a path to greater awareness of the moment.
I am using a audio recording to practice and it commences with a gentle sounding bell to denote the commencement and the closure of the session.
In the book you are urged to find "bells" in your everyday life that can signal brief moments of clarity and mindfulness. One that it suggests is that of the red man at road crossings when you are walking. It gives you approximately two minutes to note your current situation and root yourself in your breathing
So if you are in London and see a man calmly standing at a red signal despite every one else dashing across then that will probably be me!

Mindfulness Week 3 : 22/7/13

There's much to write about in mental health services at the moment , but with your patience I am going to continue to consider the issue of Mindfulness and my on going practice. It has been really hard to build a sense of discipline into this area of my life and I guess discipline is not a virtue I possess but am keen to develop. It really is striking what can get in the way when you have to find all of 8 minutes for a meditation exercise. I recall clearly when I have had the task of writing or even the dreaded marking when a lecturer.
It was surprising then how much time I could waste on walking from room to room , or tasks that needed doing suddenly seemed urgent. I found myself engaged in any distracting behaviour rather than get marking that pile of dissertations.
In many ways this is similar , there are lots of reasons why I should do other things rather than pay attention to the needs of practice. Yet I persist, and have found real moments of calm and quiet. If we wait for the world we live in to be like that , then we can wait a very long time!
I have found one of the most revealing issues to be the constant chatter of internal dialogue that demands attention but which can be really fruitless, at worst this seems to take the form of ruminating and can be tiring. Yet a simple attentive episode of "noticing" can be so restorative, it seems to have the capacity to introduce actual choice as to the significance of what we experience.
I have found the exercises related to listening quite revealing (although dominated by the local jackdaws) , as they clearly point towards the listening we can undertake to internal thought "chatter" and whether choose to do more than notice its presence.
So yes still persisting and even more importantly feeling a real sense of benefit.

Mindfulness :Week 2

So two weeks of mindfulness practice have gone by, and what a really interesting (to me) couple of weeks it has been. I am now firmly into week 3 and really enjoying it.
I think some of the major challenges have been carving out time and also reconsidering how I engage with everyday life.
It has been a challenge occasionally to undertake the meditation exercises and I have resorted to doing them on my early morning commute to London at times. But, the good news is that it can be done!
I have also reconsidered exactly what happens when I spend time just thinking. I always thought that the quiet time I enjoy in the early morning with a strong cup of Assam tea  was a moment of reflection and preparation for my day.
However, using the practice of mindfulness I can see that it was usually far from restful. It was characterised by planning, anticipating and at times ruminating over what may happen, what very probably would happen and at times what would rarely happen.Far from restful and at times quite exhausting and also pointless. So what difference can mindfulness make?
Perhaps I can give you an example of yesterdays journey to a CQC meeting in London.
My train was cancelled, then the next train was delayed.In fairness this is a rare occurrence for me but still a frustrating start and I hate being late to a meeting.
I then got onto Paddington underground station and had to wait for a Circle line train.
However, as time went on I stepped to the open sun filled end of the platform stood in the sunshine, closed my eyes and mindfully focussed on my breathing. I may have spent only a minute or two, but I felt the sun and noted the sensations coming through my feet and just stayed in the moment.
It was not only a quick destressor but a very pleasurable moment. No real requirement other than to place into practice what I have been learning.
I hope that such occurrences of using what I am learning will continue to present themselves. I wonder if you would find such means of managing everyday issues helpful to?